broken hearts

God never does what you think he should, he works in bigger, more loving circles than we ever expect. This last week of fasting and praying was no exception. God moved, we opened ourselves to him and yet we still wrestled with him as he poured things into us that were unexpected. Over and over the cry of this last week was a corporate cry of:

Heal my heart and make it clean
Open up my eyes to the things unseen
Show me how to love like you have loved me

Break my heart from what breaks yours
Everything I am for your kingdoms cause
As I go from earth to
Eternity

Here is the whole song:

I see the king of glory
Coming on the clouds with fire
The whole earth shakes
The whole earth shakes


I see his love and mercy
Washing over all our sin
The people sing
The people sing

[Chorus]
Hosanna
Hosanna
Hosanna in the highest x2

I see a generation
Rising up to take their place
With selfless faith
With selfless faith

I see a near revival
Stirring as we pray and seek
We're on our knees
We're on our knees

[Chorus]

Heal my heart and make it clean
Open up my eyes to the things unseen
Show me how to love like you have loved me

Break my heart from what breaks yours
Everything I am for your kingdoms cause
As I go from earth to
Eternity

- Hillsong United "Hosanna"



At Calvary Chapel Corvallis we want our hearts to be moved by what moves God, changed by what he is doing, broken over what he weeps for, and that our hands would be ready and able to step in, move and act at the slightest nudge.

God gave the prayer meetings a newness every time. Between worship, praying for humility, revival and the church body we were never at a lack of words. One meeting pastor Rob opened the meeting up to requests for healing and for over an hour an a half we asked God to heal, with prayers of faith by name for family members, friends, and people in the church body. What would God do if His people had the faith to believe that he can move? What would he deposit in us if we cried out for more and more of Him?

At the final prayer meeting on Saturday night one of the pastors prayed thanking God for taking the reigns of the meetings and for doing things that were not on anyone's agenda but His. The pastor confessed that he (being the missions pastor at Calvary Chapel) was thinking many would be called to the mission field, people sent out, leaders called, destinies seen easily. But God's burden was placed on us for the needy, those who in our community have nothing, they can't get to church, they live in tents, the elderly, the homeless,the hungry, the broken. God loves the broken, his heart snuggles them and ours needs to as well.

As much as sending out is a strong ministry already in our church, as there are over 20 missionaries that are supported through Calvary Chapel Corvallis, but He is birthing in our church a place for each of us to serve. For the kids, the parents, those who aren't called (at least right now) to go far away. He is bringing us to the place where we see his heart for those in our proximity. That we would reach out- be his hands, his feet.

Not only a week of prayer and fasting but also one of extreme fellowship as well gathered three times a day at the church and were bonded together with strings that are stronger than friendship or likeness, but bonds that are heavenly.

After the last prayer meeting on Saturday night we had the Sabos and the Kramers over to our home and we had yummy pizza, salad, chips, salsa and brownies....things that we had all been looking forward to all week. The thing we noticed though, was that the food wasn't nearly as good as we had expected, it satisfied, but only a little, and it was not nearly as delicious as we had anticipated. This in no way means we are instituting a perpetual fast, but just that we can finally understand the practical side of that verse saying that, "we do not live by bread alone, but by every word that comes from the mouth of the Lord" (Deut. 8:3). While we were weak and hungry this week, God nurtured us and placed his heart in us.